wondering..

Another month passed by after my last post. I like to write diary yet never successful to do so cos "busy". I'm still busy now because of my FYP. It's due April 3 and my viva will be on 9 April. I'm busy like hell after Chinese New Year break. Never have a chance to rest and stop my work.

Today, i finish my methodology and result & discussion part though i have problem in my design, waiting to ask my supervisor. However, he didn't come to school. Waiting for an hour, end up back to room disappointingly. Finally i take some time to rest my mind and reflect about my present life. I'm sad because it's not the life that God favours. Everyday i wake up i start to do my FYP until i sleep at night. I didn't talk to my room mates for long time. Seldom join my course mates for lunch... My whole world is just my FYP. Is it bigger than everything? I'm frustrated a lot of time because of this. I know i'm limited and not clever. It's really challenging in doing this FYP. So i make up my mind i wont further my studies.

Really thank God for church prayer meet on every Thursday. God really bless this prayer meet. Every time i come to prayer with weary heart, body and mind but when i go back i'm refresh and regain strength, joy and peace. In the presence of God, nothing we can hide from Him. Our sins, our burden, our regrets... He knows everything. When i open up to Him, He heals me and lifts me up again. Thank you Lord. Tonite, we share about how to enhance relationship with one another in church. Pastor challenged me to go visit some of the aunties though i've only 1 month left here. It's one of my regrets for not building good relationship with aunties and uncles here. I used to think that i'm just a pilgrim that will leave here one day. This day is going to come soon. But i feel hard to leave here. How am i going to spend the rest of my time here? Just leave like tat, keep on busy with my FYP and viva? or step out from my comfort zone to care for others? What can i do to bless others? Lord, is it too late? I'm running out of time... Teach me and guide me O Lord...