Printer ink

My printer is run out of black ink recently. I do not refill it until today because i need to print some important notes to give my friend as part of my christmas gift.

After seeing my lecturer, about 12.45pm, i cycled out to Wei Pin to refill my printer ink. It is hot and i'm without any jacket to cover my arm from the hot sun. I talked to myself, just a while only. Have perseverance! When i reached there, i ask the seller. He said for this model of ink, it's not advisable to use needle injection to refill and there is no local ink which is cheaper. In other words, i need to buy an original ink which cost RM58. If i don't buy the ink, that means the printer can be thrown away. It's useless without ink. After much thought, i decided to buy since this is the only way. But my heart feel very painful. I never buy or invest any expensive good. Simple life will do for me. For His purpose, i should not be stingy. All i have is all given by Him. I just need to spend my money wisely. Now i know, it needs to pay some price in serving God. If what i do can win soul for God, it's worth for all

Bed vs cradle

Today, after sending Joshua to bus stop and back to hostel, something was happened in my hostel. They were changing our old bed with new bed. The workers took away our old bed, just left the mattress. I have been waiting for the whole afternoon for new bed because i was tired and really need a nap. Since today is Friday, the rest time is longer. I slept on my chair but the position was not right, then i slept by putting my head on table. Yet i didn't sleep well. Still feel very tired. End up i awoke to continue preparing worship lead tonight. When i left my room for dinner, the bed was outside the room. Only after i back from the home gathering, finally the new bed was installed. I did some cleaning work because it was dusty.

Christmas is just around the corner. We know that Jesus was born in the manger because the inn was full. Just imagine that a baby lies on the hay in the manger which is very smelly. It is not a good experience. We are too comfortable right now, living in good condition, even in hostel we have good bed to rest our head. However, Jesus, the newborn King did not have such comfort like us. Give thanks to God for all He gave us. Be content and grateful for all.

New slipper

This is my new slipper. Cute??? Haha.... My old one was broken during life game. I bought that during LI in KL. I know it's time to change my slipper with new one as its lifespan is due. Everything has their own lifespan. Some may be long but some may be short. No one knows the exact time it dies off. So we need to prepare a new one just in case the old one breaks down in emergency. However, we do not have second chance for life. When we breathe out our last breath, no new body can substitute us to continue the journey of life. We need to treasure every moment we have when we still alive especially live for God to the fullest. Those who have Christ in our life, we will have eternity with God. We do not have to afraid of death but we are accounted for what we do on Earth as one day we will be judged by God of what we have done. However, by God's grace and strength, we can do everything.

This new slipper makes me think back of a gift i receive during 1 January this year. Ya, it's this little pair of shoes. He told me that this shoes can remind me that God loves me everyday, every minute and every second. God will never forgot me though men will.


However, this shoes make me thinks of "tian lu" (journey of heaven) as shown in this picture.

This picture was on my softboard in my room last semester. There is a verse on it. It's a words from Jesus when He is going to be persecuted and cruxified. John 16:32b, "Yet I am not alone because the Father is with me." As we walk the journey of heaven, it's tough yet we do not need to be afraid because God is with us. The picture shows the shoes that Jesus wore. It reminds me about the shoes mention in the whole armor of God in Ephesians 6:15, "For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared." I should put on this shoes to share the Good News... God's hand is holding me tight. His hand is always bigger than mine. His is great and powerful. Who shall i afraid and why should i be afraid???

This shoes is shoes of God. I will only follow His steps, His plan and guidance. I don't know whether i will follow you wherever you go, but as we put God first i believe that everything will be in place. Let's follow the footprints of God which lead us to eternity and abundance life.

喜乐儿童营2008

Date: 28-11-08 till 1-12-08
Venue: Ayer Itam CMC
Event: AIM Joy Kids Camp 2008

紧接着青宣营之后，就是我教会的儿童营。这是我每一年都会参与的营会。以前，在喜乐儿童还没成立时，这营会就是所谓的假期圣经学校。主日学校更新后就改名为喜乐儿童。而每年的假期营就变成了喜乐儿童营。我从没参加过假期圣经学校。当我有机会参加营会时，也就是第一届的喜乐儿童营。那时我是一位小组的组长。从小就在主日学长大的我，受恩于主日学，所以也报恩于主日学。从中三开始，我就在主日学里参与事奉直到进入大学为止。进入大学后，我无法每个星期都在家乡的教会，所以这一年一度的儿童营是我可以贡献的地方。只要时间配合得到，我都会出席协助。

今年，我还是当小组的老师。虽然我并不很老，经验也不多，但我还是尽我所能的协助组长带领这些小朋友。我知道小孩子不容易搞，有些很听话，但有些却很顽皮。我的组有19位组员，年龄由9-14岁，并不很容易带。在这几天的营会里，我尝试去做他们的朋友，却失败了。他们都很安静，有问未必有答。我尝试融进他们的圈子，但我却没有他们的活力。一部分是因为我的身体很疲累，因为睡眠不足。每天早上，我还是习惯的早醒，帮忙预备150份的早餐。这是我与校长沟通的良好时间。每年的这个营会，是我可以真正和诸位老师交流沟通的好时机，因为平时很少会出现在教会，尤其是今年。老师的鼓励分享往往令我获益不浅，因为她们的人生经历可比我们这些年轻人丰富得多了！

我很喜欢小孩子，因为他们很天真可爱。我很喜欢他们的那份稚气与活力。他们总是充满精力，活跃万分。在营会里，我看到很多有爱心的父母。孩子来参加营会，父母亲也不得空，因为不放心。有一对7岁的小女生，她们很勇敢，住在教会里，不会吵要回家还是要爸爸妈妈。他们的父母可真放心。他们的孩子真的很独立。时代真的不一样了。我的那个年代，家人是不放心我们参加营会，要离开家在外过夜。

我喜欢儿童诗歌，因为都会有动作，很活泼的。今年的主题是Superhero。我蛮喜欢superhero这首歌，加上它的动作，很可爱！我已经不再是儿童了，所以有点不好意思像他们蹦蹦跳跳。然而，我却喜欢在唱诗时，用我的手和我的脚来跳舞赞美敬拜神，只是在众人面前不敢而以。今年，我们请了吉隆坡非拉铁非教会的Super Kids同工来带领我们的营会。他们教了我们许多的新歌。其中有一首慢歌 Kids’ Prayer，也是我的最爱之一。我愿像孩子般，在主的爱中，主的话语中及事奉中成长。

这次，我邀请Joshua和我一起参加这营会，成为我小组的helper。一方面我们可以一起事奉，一方面是要让他认识我教会的弟兄姐妹。感谢主，他真的可以和他们融洽的相处。这也是我首次在教会里正式公开我们的关系。我很感恩，因为得到弟兄姐妹的认同与祝福。这是我成长的地方，有我主日学的老师，团契的指导，长辈及其他的弟兄姐妹。他们的话都是真诚的。他们看着我长大，是我最好的导师。有他们的祝福让我在这感情上走得更坚定。感谢主赐给我他。虽然我们俩都很疲惫，但一起事奉是很甘甜的。

明年我就大学毕业了。我不知我会在哪里发展，也不知还有没有机会来Joy Camp帮忙。虽然跟孩子们有些距离，但我还是很喜欢小孩子:P

This is our camp photos with 150++ people

Song presentation on Sunday School Sunday

This is my group - Samuel!

My kids...They r cute n nice!!!

This is my group sharing time. Though very noisy n uncontrollable, i wish that i can teach them well n they understand what i said.

Praise n Worship time....

Listen to God's words...

Pray to Jesus....

Kids Carnival a.k.a fun fair

Color competition! She is the winner for 7-9 yr old category.

Closing ceremony. We get "hero" badge! Yeah!!!

华传青宣营-启动生命力（24-27/11/2008）

感谢神让我能够参与此营会。这都是神的恩典，不然这时的我还在德国实习。虽然无法去德国，但这营会的确在我生命中激起了阵阵涟漪。。。

宣教之路果真不简单，且充满着未知数及挑战。我的去返行程就是如此。营会地点是在Melaka的 A Famosa Resort。从大学这里并没有巴士可以直接到达目的地。最后，传道帮我们买了去马六甲的巴士票。由于我们占了巴士上一半的乘客，所以司机才通融让我们在Tampin 的toll 那里下巴士。我们11.30am上巴士，一路上有停顿接载其他乘客，最后在7pm左右才抵达Tampin toll. 在那儿，我们麻烦泗豪和龙严来载我们去会所。我们错过了晚餐时间。当我们抵达营地，注册后便进入会所参加开幕礼。

坐了半天的巴士，好累哦！这营地很大，走路是无法回到宿舍的。这也是个千人营，总共有将近一千人的参加者和宣教士。整个营会共花费了大约马币30万。然而，我想这么大笔的金钱投资在这营会上是值得的，因为这营会成功震撼许许多多的弟兄姐妹回应神的呼召献身让神使用，启动了我们的生命力，不再为自己活，乃为神而活，也使我们认识什么是宣教。每一个讲员的信息，每一位宣教士的见证分享，每一位小组导师的灵修分享，都是很宝贵的灵粮，滋润每一颗爱主的心，挑起事奉主的火焰，向上自己为活祭。

我真的没后悔参加这营会，只可惜我自己不争气，并没有认识到任何新朋友。感谢主让我接触到Pastor Jamson，一位在柬埔寨宣教的香港人。他告诉我关于活祭的一个简单易懂的解释，就是想像那祭物是活生生的，没有被绑的，所以当我们烧那祭物时，它会跳啊喊啊。。。因为它不是死的，所以它可能会跳下来。圣经教导我们要将身体献上当作活祭，那是需要我们甘心乐意的摆上。在献心夜时，我把我的至爱放在主的坛前烧，真的很痛很痛，但我知道世上没有一样东西是永恒的，惟有主。。。感谢主的大爱，赦免我一切的罪孽，他的宝血把这一切的罪都洗清了。。

营会结束后，并没有依依不舍之感，只是觉得身体疲累，因为每天只睡了6个钟。从营地回到大学那里又是充满挑战的旅程。我们坐营会安排的巴士到Tampin车站，在那里我们搭另一辆巴士到芙蓉KTM，然后坐KTM回到KL。晚上11点我们才从KL坐巴士回返Parit Buntar。凌晨5点我们才到达。真的很累。。。然而我无法真正休息，因为接着我要回去槟岛的教会协助儿童营。清早6.15我们就开车去槟岛。。。

In front of Cowboy town

In our chalet A1088

Guess whose hand it tat???

Group photo using Joshua's new camera lense

BMCMC children camp (2)

我们12AM才入睡。6.30AM 我们就必须起身，7.30AM就要预备好，等待小孩子们来报到。有一位弟兄会去JURU载小孩来参加这营会。我不会驾福音车，只好留在教堂那里帮忙。

将近8am时，孩子们陆续的来报到。他们的脸上都是充满着笑容，开开心心的来参加这假期儿童营。这里大约有150位小朋友吧！从4岁到12岁，大大小小，真的不少人！在这一群人中我觉得很茫然，因为他们对我来说，很陌生！当小孩子们很天真地在做早操和唱歌比动作时，我真的是僵硬在那。看着台上带领的老师们，他们已是孩子们的妈妈了，仍然很有活力的带领小朋友来做动作，令我惭愧不已。当我们与孩子们一起的时候，应该像孩子们那样天真活泼，才能与他们做朋友。做了大专生，这份童真似乎已经不见了。我的心是否还能像小孩子般年轻起来呢（虽然我不是很老）？要参与儿童事工，需要的就是这份单纯活泼的心，像孩子们单纯的信靠神，为神唱，为神比动作赞美神。但是，往往我们会在乎别人的眼光，而不敢在众人面前显露我们的童真，怕别人讥笑，便带着面具做人。圣经里的大卫王，在神的面前踊跃跳舞，却被他的妻子米甲轻视。我们的敬拜是要得人的称赞还是神的喜悦？我们的事奉是做给人看还是为神而作呢？

在分班的时候，我不知要去哪一组，因为没人委派我工作。突然觉得被遗弃的感觉。最后我鼓起勇气，随便进入一个班级帮忙。我选择了喜乐组，我在大专的小组。这组的孩子都是6岁的，有十多位。我只是帮头帮尾，没有什么贡献。在做手工时，学习耐心地教他们弄或帮他们弄。吃了午餐，他们就回家了。就这样，在营会的最后两天我出席帮忙。对他们还不很熟悉，所以没有太大的舍不得感。

当我没事做时，我就在观察这些小朋友。他们都很有活力，很喜欢追来追去。女生们通常是坐着聊天。男生比较调皮，常常作弄其他同学。然而他们就是小朋友嘛，就是那么轻松自在，无忧无虑，开开心心过每一天。真的很怀念我的童年。。。

其实，在下个星期，我会参加我家乡教会的儿童营，在当中作小组的老师，面对的就是这些可爱的小朋友。有的可能很坏蛋，但有的可能很乖巧。有不同年龄的小朋友，有不同的需要。这次的服事可能就是预备我自己来参加这来临的儿童营，好让我懂得该怎么预备自己的心，全心投入孩子们的圈子中，与他们做朋友，教导带领他们。求神赐我一颗像孩子般天真活泼和单纯的信心来服事神，服事这班我不认识的小朋友。

The cross of the church shine brightly at nite in the town signifies the existence of the church n God

The kids are doing action. So cute!!!

A pair of brothers...very similar rite?

Another pair...So cute!!!

He was being bullied n cried. Poor kid... Look so down

This uncle is so old yet serving in kid's ministry as teacher...Impressive!

Two round faces smiling radiantly... :)

I like tis gal very much. She is very cute n guai...

BM CMC children camp 08 (1)

虽然我已经考完试，但我还无法放假，因为要留在大学里做我的FYP (Final Year Project)。由于我会有两个星期去参加一些的营会，所以只剩两个星期的假期来做我的FYP。当我一考完试，我就开始做我的FYP，因为有很多东西要做，深怕做不完。然而，在17-21/11/08，有个儿童营在大山脚卫理公会进行，需要一些同工协助。我从没考虑要去帮忙，因为我必须做我的FYP。结果，在星期一时，传道很积极地邀请我出席协助，最后我答应了，出席最后两天的营会。其实，我的FYP进展很慢，令我很担心，因为有很多未知数。既然那里有需要，我又有能力去给与帮助，就凭信心去吧！

在我还没有去的时候，我很挣扎，因为我放不下我的FYP。如果我去帮忙这营会，我就失去两天的时间来做我的FYP。直到最后，我还是决定去，心中默默地祷告求神给我一颗信靠他的心前去帮忙。我不懂我可以给什么，也不懂在那营会中我该做什么，就这样我出发了。我星期三晚上就要和传道他们去那里过夜。由于传道赶时间的关系（从这里到大山脚需1小时的车程），我必须到NT与他会面。我便请一位弟兄载我去（他是骑电单车的）。怎知在要去的前一个小时，竟然下起大雨来。我心中祷告说，若上帝要我去，他必会开路，这雨是会停的。我等啊等，将近出发的时间时，雨仍不见得变小或停止，心中开始焦虑了，就麻烦另外一位有汽车的姐妹载我去。我是位很守时的人。我不喜欢迟到，更不喜欢让人等我。所以，按着时间，在雨水中，我们出发了。怎知传道叫我到大学的guard house等他就可以了，因为事有变卦，他会进来campus。我就在guard house等他。在等他的当儿，雨竟然停了。奇妙吗？其实我不需担心怎么去就算是下雨，因为若是神的心意，他必开路。我对神的信心可真小。环境的变卦真的会令人失去信心，就像在海面上行走的彼得。当我们看环境和自己的能力时，信心顿失。若我们单单定睛仰望信靠那全能的真神时，就不必担心，庸人自扰。另外，耐心等待的功课我也还没学会。神的时间总是最好，虽然延迟了。若我太早从宿舍出发，就要U-turn回来大学这里。

虽然在出发的过程发生了许多小事，心中有很多的自责和愤怒（沟通上的问题），但当我上到车上时，这一切都变得微不足道，因为我是去协助一个有意义的事工。的确，我的信心操练有待进步，愿神扶持我！

Tis is my new blog

Hello everyone. Greet u peace!!!

This is my first time writing a blog. I've decided to create a blog because i wish to share what i've experienced in my life n bless the readers. This is a good record of my journey of my life as well. Little notes that tracking the grace of God in my life.

God bless u all.